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i'm a blogger [02 Nov 2008|09:26pm] kristaxlynn.blogspot.com/ Walk with me.

[28 Oct 2008|05:46pm] Well, I had my medication assessment yesterday. The woman that was writing my prescriptions was basically amazed that I had no prior mental medical history whatsoever. She basically said that she is thrilled to be working with me, and to be my "first" so I'm excited too. I feel a lot more "normal" now, especially after letting my whole story out. Her eyes kinda got huge and she stopped to talk to me about almost every detail. The appointment ended up lasting until 9:30. I have never spoke the truth like that to someone in my life. My mom really helps me a lot, but theres only so many times I can hear the advice "you've just gotta be strong krista" ever since I've been getting help she's been calling me less and less. Her parents don't approve either. Grampie just says "why do you think you need that Krista" seriously. if they only knew. if anyone in my life only knew. but no one will ever have to know, because i'm going to get better. Walk with me.

[27 Oct 2008|12:19am] my mom changed her last name. Walk with me.

[26 Oct 2008|05:46pm] I have decided to quit martinis and move to wine. Red wine. Reeeeed red winneeeeeee. moving into a new house soon. new digicam. and also we're going to be LANDLORDS. details coming soon. Walk with me.

[19 Oct 2008|03:59am] OH LIFE. Shanna is (was) back in ol' emmc. Hopefully she is back home now. She was in my dreams just a few minutes ago before I was awoken by laughing. Yes. Laughing. Apparently my boyfriend has taken up talking and laughing in his sleep. I kicked him out of the bedroom. So here I am. Laying in bed at three in the morning with stingy eyes and total exhaustion, but yet I have the feeling that getting back to sleep is going to be impossible. The bedroom looks awesome. I have it all organized for the most part. I finally finished reorganizing the closet which seemed like a task that wouldn't EVER become accomplished. But I surprised myself the other day when I was taken over by my alternate personality- "Cleaning Krista" who only comes out to play like once a year. However, despite the bedroom looking fab, yesterday I noticed a rank smell and I can fucking find where it is coming from. It is bugging the hell out of me. This week has been ok. I'm starting to realize that I'm becoming a wine-o due to Chino Latino's amazing happy hour. Wednesday night Morgan and I got trashed and ate good food for $20. Twenty Dolla! For wine and mexican pizza. So good. So so good. That night got a little blurry. I ended up sleeping in and missing my obgyn appointment. I hope they don't bill me for it. Eep. Work, is going great. WHOA. I requested to transfer last week and now everyone is like practically bending over backwards to get me to stay. Ha ha ha ha! HA! HA! Which is exactly what I wanted because that place is HELL right now, AGAIN. I told them I would stay- on ONE condition: that things start changing and I go home everyday not wanting to drive into a brick wall. For Christmas I'm pulling out the desperation ticket. I decided that I don't want to be alone so I have three options: Nani, Jake, or Morgans Dad to spend Christmas Eve/Day with. Maybe if I spent more time with Bob I would feel comfortable but it might just be awkward otherwise. I would really like to be with Nani because she is beautifillllllll and fun.... but I think I have a crush on her. So I'll probably just go with Jake. I am excited to meet his family and see where that crazy chunk of person originated from. Did anyone watch Palin on SNL last night? Walk with me.

i fucking love this girl [05 Oct 2008|08:30pm] Lykke Li & Bon Iver doing 'Dance Dance Dance' in L.A from Lykke Li on Vimeo. Walk with me.

[05 Oct 2008|09:49am] [ music | cloud cult ] you came up from the ground from a million little pieces you're a pretty human being yeah you're a pretty human being, when it all comes crashing down try to understand your meaning no one said it would be easy this living it ain't easy and you were sewn together with a tapestry of molecules a billion baby galaxies and wide open spaces and every thing you need is here everything you fear is here and it's holding you up it just keeps holding you up you came up from the ground from a million little pieces you're a pretty human being yeah you're pretty human being when it all comes crashing down try to understand your meaning no one said it would be easy this living it ain't easy Walk with me.

[15 Sep 2008|07:30pm] I've decided to factor these items into next weeks budget: New jacket New nice warm leather winter boots Leggings Rain Jacket and sexy hair colors. professionally done, of course. Tonight we're going to dinner and a movie. The new Coen Brothers movie is out and I am taking Morgan. Walk with me.

[14 Sep 2008|07:24pm] If you're interested in seeing an actual video of exactly where I live (even has my coffee shop) Walk with me.

[14 Sep 2008|11:27am] My digital camera is officially lost. My paycheck this week was bigger than expected. I was paid for a sick day when I didn't ask. That was nice. So, I'm going to buy a new one. I've been looking on amazon, and I think that I can definitely get a better deal that way. I like this one. Inexpensive is nice. http://www.amazon.com/Samsung-8-1MP-Digital-Camera-Optical/dp/B001283FDS/ref=pd_bbs_sr_3?ie=UTF8&s=electronics&qid=1221409874&sr=8-3 I have to pay a driving after suspension fee for that whole Shakopee ordeal. I was told it was going to go onto my driving record but that there are ways to get it taken off. I must further investigate this, because, my driving record was looking pretty nice until this happened. Also, the car broke down. Kind of. I think it might be the battery, crossing my fingers that it's not the alternator. Regardless, I need to get the brakes fixed too so this is going to cost us a pretty penny. So, this month I'm just set on taking the bus. We just got the paper. Mccain and Obama are "dead even" .........no comment Walk with me.

[10 Sep 2008|02:43pm] Bon Iver - "For Emma" from MySpace Transmissions Walk with me.

[09 Sep 2008|12:26am] Well I'm sitting here with Jake and Morgan trying to make myself tired. We went up to the Boundary Waters this weekend. This was Morgans "two years in MInneapolis" anniversary surprise to me. So... it went a little like this! FIRST of all.. It took us SIX hours to get to the tippy top of Minnesota. We stayed in a little town called "Ely". It was CUTE as a button. A tourist trap. Canoe outfitters everywhere. We rented a cabin and a canoe, and got outfitted for a camping trip. So with out canoes we carried our backpacks and canoed to a private camping spot and set up for Saturday and Sunday. We went fishing. Morgan caught a bunch of Walleye. Made me proud. I can catch fish, but I can't take them off the hook. I just leave them there to die.... Kind of morbid... I just don't understand how people can reach down their little throats and rip out a big hook! Poor fishies. So that went well. The first night Morgan fell off of the dock though. We got a little too drunk. I didn't dress for the occasion. I am down with a cold. Bought a bunch of Bouthouse Farms Immune Booster smoothies. That is my new cure-all. That and a cup of good ol' hotter than a crotch cup of Earl Grey. I'm re-reading "she's come undone". I really need to get new books. But, I really love this book. Well worth re-reading. So, I'll go finish that...and... stop updating.... because.... yah. Walk with me.

[02 Sep 2008|05:08am] I have three job interviews this week for Administrative Asst./Human Resources Asst positions. I have enough experience to blossom and grow in a professional environment. I'm tired of bitchy customers. I'm daydreaming about the day that I can just be the calm person that everyone comes to to tell me the juice. Front desk jobs are where it's at. We're going to a Republican National Convention protests tonight. I am so peeved at the way the St.Paul police are acting. It's ridiculous. It looks like there is a war going on here. Every time I open the paper or watch the news on whats going on I want to puke in my lap. Mccain is a nightmare that I don't want to have. Obama may be full of a lot of promises that seem far fetched, but at LEAST someone can give this country some hope. It's just weird when I think that I live in a liberal city and then all of these republicans crawl out of the woodworks. 2 have walked these city streets. Walk with me.

[18 Aug 2008|08:24am] Ewwww, I have to have a root canal tomorrow morning. I hope they aren't as bad as some people make them out to be. I just want to have my teeth back to normal again! Without the pain, and expense! Walk with me.

[17 Aug 2008|01:43am] going through old pictures amber yellin' at bitches, good times good times Walk with me.

[16 Aug 2008|06:59pm] I am.. addicted to facebook all of a sudden. I just figured out how to tag myself, and un-tag myself if need be. I don't want anyone to see those awful pics of ugly drunk faced krista. Useless fun. September 5th we are going camping somewhere, I don't know where because Morgan wont tell me. Somewhere "beautiful" though. For my "two years living in MPLS anniversary." ha. I should be cleaning, but it's hottt as a motherfucker in here. Our a.c broke and our landlord wont do anything about it. It makes the loudest noise when we turn it on. You can see it jump up and down, slightly, as it blows out useless spurts of cold air. Bah. and fans are so expensive!! I bought two from target yesterday and they were twenty bucks each. I even had to put them together myself. How long that took me, is a secret I'll never tell. My great grandmothers art gallery was today. I am eager to see the pictures that my family took. I cried last night when mom called me and told me about it. I get really sad when I can't be involved in important family events. It sucks being all the way out here. Selfish Krista, silly me... Ever since I was a kid though, I've always loved my g-grams paintings. Some people in the searsport area are collectors, but my family and distant cousins own all of the popular ones. I had a dream last night that I starting dating the guy that bought my childhood house. That was weird. Walk with me.

[14 Aug 2008|11:51pm] Welcome to the world of retail pharmacy How long will it take? How long will it take? Patients are in a hurry ... don't have long to wait. In front of all orders, they want to be next. Who cares if others are sick and need an Rx! Just slap on a label and pour in some pills. How long could that take for a simple refill? How long will it be? How long will it be? The phones won't quit ringing ... we're busy you see... Do you know which insurance you want us to bill When the doctor calls back to OK your refill? Pardon us while we ring up a patient or two, Counsel on analgesics and treatments for the flu. There's a doctor on hold! Where's the Rx pad? Someone needs help finding the toothpaste that's in Sunday's ad! The insurance is down; the order is late. It's a typical morning; just one big headache! Yes, you've been on the same stuff year after year. And we'll call back the doctor and remind him you're here, After we redo the order for the man before you He wants one month, not three, or did he say two? The printer needs paper; the fax won't feed right. The orders are mounting; there's no end in sight. Now, you want a tax statement, we'll work that right in, While checking out someone with pseudo ephedrine! You lean on the counter, shooting the breeze, But we're trying to count and need quiet please! Personnel wants a schedule; the tech went on break Somehow your order is ready, make no mistake! Could you call ahead in the future to give us some time? Now we're ready to wait on the next guy in line. He has five prescriptions and would like to wait, He just wants to know ... How long will it take? - Drug Topics June 18, 2007, pg. 64 Walk with me.

[09 Aug 2008|11:26pm] Saw death on a sunny snow Him: "For every life..." Her: "Forgoe the parable." Him: "Seek the light." Her: "...My knees are cold." (Running home, running home, running home, running home...) Her: "Go find another lover; to bring a... to string along!" "With all your lies, You're still very lovable." Walk with me.

[04 Aug 2008|08:53am] Last weekend we went to Shakopee and went to Valley Fair. Is was a lot like FunTown, except with better roller coasters. We rode on a few rides, and went on a couple of water slides- which is what I was craving most. I really don't care for rides.. Only roller coasters and water slides. There was good food and a good crowd. Lines were long. When we arrived to the cities we realized that Morgan had left his cell at the park. 843843028423042 time losing that fucking thing. Glad it's only pre-paid. =] So today we went back to Shakopee to the Lost and Found to get the phone. After that, we wanted some Chinese food, so we got back onto the highway and headed west to see what was out there. I saw a sign that said "Makato 59 miles" so I got the bright idea that I wanted to see what Mankato was all about. Durt. Long story short I ended up getting pulled over to find out that my license was suspended due to unpaid fines in Minneapolis. What the fucccck. Morgan paid those fines for me when we were both in Maine...UGH. And the cops that pulled us over were fucking ASSHOLES. They treated me like shit and I had absolutely no idea what was going on. He made me get out of the car! I was crying and he told me that if I didn't stop he would put me in the back of the cruiser. I was astounded and freaked out. I thought that this fucker was going to kidnap me and rape me, cut my body up to bits and throw me into lake whatever. He bitched me out for like a half hour, made Morgan sit in our car and wouldn't let him talk to me, meanwhile I had to stand outside of the cop cruiser and let the asshole go off. He ended up giving me a ticket for driving after suspension. I am outraged. Not ONLY did we pay the stupid parking ticket, but we paid a fucking late fee on top of that! DICKHEADS. Lesson learned today: Do not leave the cities My favorite quote that the cop spit at me: "What are you doing in the cities!" Uhhh I fucking live there. Fucking douche. I'm pretty sure my rights were violated at one point. I am going to the DMV first thing in the morning and getting a fucking apology, there is no reason why that should have happened to me. Not only did I get threatened to get put into the slammer, I was insulted and violated- for no reason! I am a good citizen. We both are. I pay my fucking taxes, my insurance, and my stupid parking tickets. ASSSSES The art fair was this weekend. We caught the tail end of it, hardly. Went to the independent to cool off and unwind. Jumped in Lake Calhoun for a night cap. Also went to home-grown glass and bought a new onie. It's pretty rad. Shanna seems stable. She is out of the ICU, which takes a huge amount of stress off of the situation. I hope she's feeling a little better emotionally though.. I feel so bad.. wish I could make all of this go away for her. Maybe I should be come a Crohns Specialist? =] Walk with me.

[01 Aug 2008|06:25pm] I have been thinking a lot today, and yesterday. There are a select few people in my life that I have always felt comfortable around, that I've felt a soul connection with.. People that let me just be me without having to put on a fake smile and artificial persona. Shanna is one of those people.. and maybe it's cliche and selfish to say that I don't know what I would do without her.. but I really don't. She's the only Shanna that I have. There will be no other Shanna to replace Shanna. It's really difficult to be dealing with this while I'm a million miles away everything I left behind- for her though, I can't even begin to imagine all of the pain she is feeling. I only want her to be better at this very moment. For all of this to stop happening and to hear her peppy excited voice and her funny stories. Ahhrg. This is such a sad time. Walk with me.

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